The Thrown-Away Words

73 years ago today, on June 12, 1942, a young teenager received an autograph book, a book she had seen in a shop window and picked out herself as a birthday present. An enticing empty book, with lines. And like many teenage girls and all writers everywhere, that girl looked at those empty lines and began to fill them up with words. A diary recounting her everyday life, her family, her teenage crushes. Altogether ordinary.

But this was 1942 and she lived in Amsterdam during the Nazi occupation and she was Jewish. She and her family had moved to Amsterdam from Germany to escape the Nazis, but unfortunately, their escape was not to last long. Her name, as you might have guessed, was Anne Frank. That diary became her outlet, her secret friend, as she went into hiding with her family. She drafted the diary in the form of a series of  letters to “Kitty”, and it is on those pages that she recounts her hopes and dreams. In 1944 she heard a radio broadcast encouraging people to preserve their observations of civilian life in wartime Amsterdam that they might have in the forms of diaries or letters. She went back over her entries and began to organize them in a way that would make sense to future readers.

Anne’s family was betrayed and they were arrested in 1944, mere months after that radio broadcast. Anne and her sister ended up in Bergen-Belsen concentration camp, where she survived in that hellish place until August 1945. In February or March of that year, a few months before its liberation in August, both girls died, probably of typhus. Anne was 15.

A Jewish girl died in a concentration camp during WWII. That particular tragedy was magnified by the weight of so many more lives snuffed out by the horrors of the war it would have gone unnoticed, except as one of the numbers that make up the 6,000,000 exterminated by the Nazis in their Final Solution. Can we just pause for a moment and think about those luminous lives, and let our heart ache just for a moment?



Mauthausen Concentration Camp, May 1945

Mauthausen Concentration Camp, May 1945

Young survivors of Auschwitz, January 1945. Most children under 15 were gassed right away. Anne had just turned 15 a couple months before her arrest.

Young survivors of Auschwitz, January 1945. Most children under 15 were gassed right away. Perhaps these had arrived shortly before the liberation? Anne had just turned 15 a couple months before her arrest, so barely escaped the gas chamber. 

Now let’s return to that attic where Anne and her family were hidden. Picture it in the day after the arrest: silent, clothes hanging on hangers, food waiting to be eaten, belongings tossed here and there. Meip Gies, who, with others, had hidden the family, returned with her friend to see if there was anything they could collect for the family to give back to them. And there they found the family photo albums and a bunch of loose-leaf papers, strewn on the floor. Upon glancing at them, Meip realized that they were Anne’s diary, in which she had seen Anne writing, and she collected them all to give back to Anne. Meip went to the police headquarters and offered to pay for the Frank’s family release, but to no avail. Fortunately, Meip and her husband were spared arrest and survived the war and were reunited with Otto Frank, Anne’s father, who had survived Auschwitz. Once Anne’s death was confirmed by the Red Cross, Meip gave the collected papers to Otto.

Those precious papers, Anne’s diary, continue to teach us so much about those dark times and the suffering and bravery of the people who lived through it. And all because Anne picked up a pen and started to write, two days after her birthday, about the things that made up her life. And because Meip recognized the value of those left-behind papers and saved them for Anne, and so for all of us.

Anne writes in her diary:

 I want to be useful or bring enjoyment to all people, even those I’ve never met. I want to go on living even after my death! And that’s why I’m so grateful to God for having given me this gift, which I can use to develop myself and to express all that’s inside me!

When I write I can shake off all my cares. My sorrow disappears, my spirits are revived! But, and that’s a big question, will I ever be able to write something great, will I ever become a journalist or a writer?

Oh, Anne, all of us writers have that question haunting our days. Will we ever be able to write something great? Of course Anne never got to see the difference her words have made in this world. One wonders if she ever thought about recounting her experiences in the camps, if she ever sought out some small scrap of paper and a nub of a pencil and scribbled anything down in the waning hours of darkness as night fell and she had a few moments before exhaustion sent her to sleep. Or was the horror too big for words? It’s almost too much to think about.
So, here’s to you Anne. Thank you for using your gift, for realizing that it could serve a larger purpose than just to amuse yourself. Here’s to you Meip, for sheltering that family (and others) and doing what you could to give some hope in those dark, dark days. And for seeing those papers and realizing that the words on them were Anne’s and therefore important to her family, for doing another kindness in the midst of your fear and grief to collect them, and in doing so, allowing Anne’s extraordinary voice to be heard.
And here’s to all the writers who have moved me and encouraged me and challenged me and made me the person I am.
I’m so glad you filled your enticing empty pages with words, fighting through your doubts and insecurities to tell the story you needed to tell.
One wonders what happened that day the police came to the attic, how the papers ended up strewn over the floor. I suspect they did a quick rummage through the place, looking for valuables, intending to come back later to do a more thorough search. Their boots perhaps trampled those pages, thrown on the floor after a quick glance at their contents.
They obviously saw them as worthless, those thrown-away words that were the most precious thing of all in that empty attic.
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3 thoughts on “The Thrown-Away Words

  1. sdorman2014 says:

    had not known some of this story in such detail. my spouse listened to me retell this and, before i’d finished, said much as you did about treasure. this insight had not entered my head as the story unfolded. thank you! cannot help but think she was aware of it, after all. there’s more meaning to that saying. after all 😉

    wd. she have been too immersed in the Bergen-Belsen experience to write of it? was her captivity in confinement the necessity? wd. she have kept up so long had her days been full of youthful activity and places?

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    • L.A. Smith says:

      There are those who speculate that without the confinement in the Secret Annex (the attic), Anne would never had spent so much time writing and developing her literary skills. It’s so hard to think of the “what-ifs” – if they had only been able to stay in the Annex a couple more months,they would have avoided being sent to Auschwitz, for as it turned out, they were on the last transport to Auschwitz from the Westerbork Internment Camp where they were first housed after their arrest. 😦

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  2. L.A. Smith says:

    Update – in doing a little further reading on Anne, I discovered that the papers ended up on the floor because they were in Otto Frank’s suitcase, which the Gestapo emptied in order to take valuables from the Annex. They truly were discarded to make room for something “better”…

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